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Vo mne vse eshche zhivet malenʹkai͡a ispugannai͡a devochka. Ona boitsi͡a temnoty, vedʹ nochʹi͡u li͡ubi͡ashchiĭ otet͡s prevrashchaetsi͡a v monstra. V svoĭ 27-ĭ denʹ rozhdenii͡a Liza uznaet iz novosteĭ: v dome, gde so svoeĭ novoĭ semʹeĭ zhil ee otet͡s, nashli tri trupa. Vse zastreleny iz ott͡sovskogo ruzhʹi͡a. V techenie neskolʹkikh chasov Liza pytaetsi͡a vyi͡asnitʹ, chʹi imenno tela obnaruzheny. Esli sredi nikh estʹ otet͡s, ėto znachit, chto ona nakonet͡s v bezopasnosti? Esli otet͡s ubil svoi͡u novui͡u zhenu i ee deteĭ, vinovata li Liza v ikh smerti? Vedʹ ona nikomu nikogda ne govorila, chto ee otet͡s na samom dele - chudovishche. Pochemu ee otet͡s stal zhestokim tiranom i ubiĭt͡seĭ? Kak spravitʹsi͡a s uzhasami proshlogo, povlii͡avshimi na vsi͡u tvoi͡u zhiznʹ? V poiskakh otvetov Liza otpravli͡aetsi͡a v Gret͡sii͡u, chtoby naĭti semʹi͡u svoego ott͡sa - i otvety na svoi voprosy. "Ne perekhodi dorogu volku" - ėto besstrashnye memuary o detskoĭ travme, chuvstve viny, primirenii s proshlym i obretenii sily. "V ėtom otkrovennom i zachastui͡u rezkom povestvovanii Nikolidakis issleduet to, chto ona nazyvaet "chudovishchnymi zloupotreblenii͡ami" so storony svoego ott͡sa. Posle togo kak on ostavil ee semʹi͡u, on ubil svoi͡u novui͡u podrugu i ikh dochʹ, a zatem sovershil samoubiĭstvo… S neotrazimoĭ i͡asnostʹi͡u i krasnorechiem Liza analiziruet ego sposobnostʹ manipulirovatʹ... Ėto smelyĭ i vdokhnovli͡ai͡ushchiĭ rasskaz o dvizhenii cherez bolʹ k slozhnomu osmyslenii͡u proizoshedshego i samovosstanovlenii͡u". - Kirkus Reviews "Ėti memuary ne skryvai͡ut nichego. Oni zhestoki i chestny, dusherazdirai͡ushchi i vyrazitelʹny, zastavli͡ai͡ut zagli͡anutʹ vnutrʹ sebi͡a. Khoti͡a Nikolidakis chestno rasskazyvaet o tʹme, kotorui͡u eĭ prishlosʹ perezhitʹ, ona takzhe otkryvaet metaforicheskoe okno i daet chitateli͡am svet... Zakhvatyvai͡ushchie, predelʹno chestnye memuary, kotorye zatragivai͡ut ti͡azhelye temy, no v kont͡se ostavli͡ai͡ut chitateleĭ s chuvstvom nadezhdy". - Library Journal

I still have a little scared girl inside me. She is afraid of the dark, because at night a loving father turns into a monster. On her 27th birthday, Lisa learns from the news: three corpses were found in the house where her father lived with his new family. They were all shot with their father's gun. For several hours, Lisa has been trying to find out exactly whose bodies were found. If there's a father among them, does that mean she's finally safe? If a father killed his new wife and her children, is Lisa to blame for their deaths? After all, she had never told anyone that her father was actually a monster. Why did her father become a cruel tyrant and murderer? How do you deal with the horrors of the past that have affected your whole life? In search of answers, Lisa travels to Greece to find her father's family — and answers to her questions. "Don't Cross the Wolf's Path" is a fearless memoir about childhood trauma, guilt, reconciliation with the past and gaining strength. In this frank and often harsh narrative, Nikolidakis explores what she calls the "monstrous abuses" by her father. After he left her family, he killed his new girlfriend and their daughter, and then committed suicide… With irresistible clarity and eloquence, Lisa analyzes his ability to manipulate... This is a bold and inspiring story about moving through pain to a difficult understanding of what happened and self-healing." — Kirkus Reviews "These memoirs hide nothing. They are cruel and honest, heartbreaking and expressive, forcing you to look inside yourself. Although Nikolidakis talks honestly about the darkness she had to go through, she also opens a metaphorical window and gives readers light... An exciting, extremely honest memoir that touches on difficult topics, but at the end leaves readers with a sense of hope." — Library Journal