Лытдыбр. Дневники, диалоги, проза

'Lytdybr' - svoego roda avtobiografii͡a Antona Nosika, sostavlennai͡a Viktorieĭ Mochalovoĭ i Elenoĭ Kallo iz dnevnikovykh zapiseĭ, publit͡sistiki, rasshifrovok intervʹi͡u i dialogov Antona.Okazavshiesi͡a v odnom prostranstve knigi, razbitye po temam (detstvo, semʹi͡a, Izrailʹ, rozhdenie russkogo interneta, Venet͡sii͡a, protesty i politika, blagotvoritelʹnostʹ, russkie media), desi͡atki i sotni razroznennykh tekstov Antona prevrashchai͡utsi͡a v edinoe povestvovanie o zhizni i smerti unikalʹnogo cheloveka, stolʹ i͡arkogo i znachitelʹnogo, chto podlinnui͡u ego rolʹ v nashem sot͡siume predstoit osmyslivatʹ eshchë mnogie gody.Kazhdai͡a glava soprovozhdaetsi͡a predisloviem odnogo iz druzeĭ Antona, literatorov i obshchestvennykh dei͡ateleĭ: Pavla Peppershteĭna, Demʹi͡ana Kudri͡avt͡seva, Arsena Revazova, Gleba Smirnova, Evgenii Alʹbat͡s, Dmitrii͡a Bykova, Lʹva Rubinshteĭna, Kateriny Gordeevoĭ.V izdanie vkli͡ucheny fotografii iz semeĭnogo arkhiva.'I͡A zhivu svoi͡u zhiznʹ tak, kak schitai͡u nuzhnym - bez ogli͡adki na vsekh stukacheĭ, palacheĭ i vertukhaev, kotorym ėto mozhet ne nravitʹsi͡a. U meni͡a estʹ blog, v kotorom i͡a pishu to, chto dumai͡u, i publichno vyrazhai͡u svoi mysli tak, kak schitai͡u pravilʹnym.Vozmozhno, u ėtoĭ svobody estʹ svoi͡a t͡sena. Vozmozhno, mne pridëtsi͡a zaplatitʹ ėtu t͡senu. Sredi moikh druzeĭ i znakomykh estʹ li͡udi, kotorye uzhe zaplatili - a tozhe vedʹ mogli b vovremi͡a sbezhatʹ. No i͡a uvazhai͡u ikh vybor. I mnogo let, gli͡adi͡a na ėti primery, i͡a sprashival sebi͡a, kak postupil by i͡a sam, okazavshisʹ na ikh meste - kogda ugroza repressiĭ uzhe ozvuchena, no eshchë ne materializovalasʹ. Otvety v golovu prikhodili samye raznye, no s odnim obshchim vyvodom: v svoeĭ edinstvennoĭ zhizni i͡a ne gotov zhertvovatʹ svobodoĭ radi bezopasnosti. I ne gotov sovershitʹ - dazhe vo imi͡a toĭ samoĭ bezopasnosti - nikakogo postupka, posle kotorogo perestal by uvazhatʹ sebi͡a. Stuk v dverʹ mozhet razdatʹsi͡a v li͡uboĭ denʹ. I nuzhno prosto bytʹ k nemu gotovym.I͡A - gotov'.Anton Nosik

"Lytdybr" is a kind of autobiography of Anton Nosik, compiled by Victoria Mochalova and Elena Kallo from diary entries, journalism, transcripts of interviews and dialogues of Anton.Russian Russian books, divided by themes (childhood, family, Israel, the birth of the Russian Internet, Venice, protests and politics, charity, Russian media), dozens and hundreds of scattered texts of Anton turn into a single narrative about the life and death of a unique person, so bright and significant that his true role in our society will be comprehended for many years to come.Each chapter is accompanied by a foreword by one of Anton's friends, writers and public figures: Pavel Pepperstein, Demyan Kudryavtsev, Arsen Revazov, Gleb Smirnov, Evgenia Albats, Dmitry Bykov, Lev Rubinstein, Katerina Gordeeva.The publication includes photos from the family archive.'I live my life as I see fit-without regard for all the snitches, torturers, and turncoats who might not like it. I have a blog where I write what I think and publicly express my thoughts in the way I think is right.Perhaps this freedom has its price. I may have to pay that price. Among my friends and acquaintances there are people who have already paid — and also could have escaped in time. But I respect their choice. And for many years, looking at these examples, I asked myself what I would do if I were in their place-when the threat of repression has already been voiced, but has not yet materialized. The answers came to my mind in a variety of ways, but with one common conclusion: in my only life, I am not ready to sacrifice freedom for the sake of security. And he is not ready to commit — even in the name of that very security — any act after which he would cease to respect himself. A knock on the door can be heard any day. And you just need to be ready for it.I'm ready.'Anton Nosik